simulation 004; visual

[i_run_you_chase]

[Jarod appears]

So this is what they call a "Flood", is that correct?

OOC: Jarod is affected by the Truth flood.

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[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

It had nothing to do with them, Miss Parker.

Why do you always pull away?

[yourunichase]

Because I'm scared! [Parker frowned quickly. because that was not what she meant to say.]

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

[and he takes another step towards her and lowers his voice]

Of what?

[yourunichase]

[Parker took a step back.] Of what this means. Of what you mean.

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

[he doesn't advance again] What do I mean, Miss Parker?

[yourunichase]

I don't know! I don't know what you mean. I hate that I can't just lock everything away anymore, because you're here and Fuck!

[The word was growled, and she turned away, her hand on her forehead, squeezing it.]

I don't know why when people ask if I love you I feel compelled to say 'yes.'

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

[he stands there, stunned, for just a moment, then takes a few steps towards her, until he's right behind her]

[softly:] Maybe it's because you do.

[yourunichase]

[She knows he's behind her, but she doesn't turn around.]

I also feel compelled to say no. I think it's just cause I'm fucked up.

Are you in love with me, Jarod?

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

At least you're acknowledging that.

[he reaches out and puts a hand to her shoulder]

I think I'm in the same place as you.

[yourunichase]

Yeah? You think I'm fucked up too?

[Parker did turn a bit, and she faced him, but she didn't pull away.]

Why are you here, Jarod? Why are you always here? I don't understand it. At the worst times in my life, you're just always there.

[Her voice dropped.]

Why did you leave the cemetery?

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

I think the Centre does terrible things to all of us.

[quiet] Maybe that's how it's supposed to be.

[and he wants to say something really vague or untrue like 'I thought you wanted to be left alone', but he can't lie, so he says:] I hate---[he grits his teeth, but it comes out anyway] I hate seeing you in pain.

Are you going to ask me all of the difficult questions now?

[yourunichase]

Me too. [The words were said quietly, but honestly.]

Do you really think that's how it's supposed to be? We're supposed to be?

[Parker blinked at that, watching him quickly and she took a deep breath.]

Like you wouldn't ask me them.

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

I don't know. [this is said sadly, but honestly. He wishes he knew, but some things just don't make sense to Genius Boy, including his own emotions]

I'm not asking you now. I want you to want to tell me.

[yourunichase]

I don't know what you want me to tell me. I've never known, Jarod.

[She wants to ask him what he wants to know, but...she can't.]

I really don't know how to do this. I'm bad at this. Tommy... Paddy... you. I'm bad at it!

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

Paddy. Warden McGuire.

So you and him are...?

[yourunichase]

I don't know what we are. We've been friends forever and then we had sex one night and now I don't know what we are. I really don't.

[Her voice was soft and pleading.]

It was before you came. Long before you came.

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

[welcome to jealous!Jarod-ville. Please enjoy your stay]

[Jarod takes a step back and heads over to his side table, where he has a line of dominoes ending in a Pez dispenser. He knocks them over, then catches the Pez dispenser as it falls]

Anything else you want to ask?

[yourunichase]

[Parker scowled at him, and instantly her defenses wrapped around her like a shield.]

Are you jealous? Are you seriously jealous of this? We you jealous of Tommy?

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

[he scowls, but replies:]

Yes. Yes. Yes.

[and he takes a bite of Pez]

[yourunichase]

[Parker is trying to quit smoking. She's been trying quite hard to quit smoking, but now with this she fumbles in the pocket of her suit for the cigarettes she knows are there somewhere.]

What would you have done if I had left the Centre? If someone hadn't Parker paused quickly] Killed him? Would you still have called me at three in the morning?

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

I'd have tried to be happy for you. Thomas was a good man, you deserved that.

And, yes, probably.

[yourunichase]

[Parker chuckled softly, but it was a very sad and bitter laugh.]

He would have kicked your ass over that, you know.

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

No he wouldn't. He was confident in how much you loved him.

[yep, you are still in jealous!Jarod ville. He looks away and back to the dominoes]

[yourunichase]

I did love him. [She said softly.] I loved him so much but...

[Parker just frowned and then she found her cigarettes and lit one.]

[i-run-you-chase.livejournal.com]

My room.

[offers her a half-empty glass of water to extinguish her cigarette]